Words just as They are

Kuopio has been a home-town to me now for 15 months and 15 days. That´s a long time for a young lady, and a lot has happened. Same time North-Savo has been friendly and many times the place has taken me to its embrace, when I´ve felt lost or sad - and same time it has been giving me these reasons WHY seek this embrace.

Quite wild ride, and fun - but heavy also.
 
I´m thinking... What did I expect when I got the acception of studying in Ingman college (of craft and design oh long beautiful name) at the summer 2012? I think those things above. Less drama, though, but really, you never know what happends next and who you´re going to meet.
 
Speaking of the embrace of Kuopio, now is the time when I miss that embrace. And yes, again it has throwed the reason, why. For a outgoing person like me, it´s hard to notice and accept the lonely feeling, that comes too often while being in Kuopio. How´s that possible, well, it always is, when coming to a total strange town. This fall I´ve noticed that even though the college has been great, our class and the other groups of the school are quite separated. Awesome people, too many cups. And at studying-time you find your friends from school, yes. That sentence and "too many cups"-words together are like Tekken. In a round ten. And your controller stops working. And says "go fuck yourself".

Okay, so no big groupie-thing at school, but few friends are more than gold. Sitting and drinking and dancing and playing wild card-games and talking and listening goooood music in the bar with a mate, who´s from other town, too, leads at some point to one remark. That remark we both adore. Over half of the bar people comes to the bar feeling like coming to their own living room: There are always persons to greet and chat with, and who you know from the misty past.

And here comes the word "past". The past that is remarkable when adoring the "living room-feeling". When realizing this, these two friends, who both are from the other side of Finland and has no past in this town, lift their shoulders with quite a sad face. Cheers, and the cheap beer-glass rises.
   After this I find myself holding even tighter to my friends who I have in East-Finland. And when those days come, when they´re outside of the town or making their own stuff for a long time, I´m standing in the middle of the town and feeling like a total lonely wolf. One day, yes, three days, ok, a week - no. For a "happy to be in a group"-person it´s hard to swallow. Hurts like... well, it hurts.

The embrace is unique and it involves so many things and reasons to love this town.
The discover of beautiful lights in the centrum while walking, 
the silence in the home-street in a chilly winter morning, the smile of a stranger. 
Lakes. The docks. The breathing, living town.
The man who plays this little piano next to the book store. The funny feeling of the market place, 
and how the bus-drivers say hello when coming from the coffee-room. 
The welcoming unique smell of the train-station stairs. Dancing people in night-time, with highlighted dialect. The awesome song in a bar, and a glass of beer flies because of the excitement.
 
This all I can see when I have mates, fellows and dear ones in my mind. The enjoyment of being alone is graceful, but the enjoyment of a good friend is a reason why you enjoy the company of yourself. Reflections. Also the idea of living in a forest-cottage for a month without a company feels calming and good, but it´s because of that I know somewhere someone is thinking, am I alright. Caring.
Do I really have to think Kuopio as a forest-cottage? Thank god, no. Even though the college feels good and same time bad because of the groups hard to get in, in life there are places to go, lovely persons to meet. The attitude.
But I have only a little past in here, and it´s still a simple mystery, do the persons in Kuopio approve the people who come far, don´t have that dialect, don´t have those same memories from high school, don´t share a friends friend from a friendly friend who knows a friend. Seriously.

What if a completely stranger comes to you at a market or a bar and says 
"Hey. I don´t know you at all, but I want to know you. And it would be fun to talk with you, but of course I´m not sure are you an interesting person or not, but you look like it because I like your hair, I mean I don´t stalk or anything but well, do you watch Adventure Times?".

(Of course the best sentence was the first one, the other part is just me being a dumbass).

It depends of the first look. But really, the mystery is the Kuopio-people. Same time laid-back, chill, same time careful, slow - and twisted. How can it be?

Back to the embrace-word. A warm, cozy feeling is more far, if the town doesn´t include familiar persons. Sometimes it´s tiring to seek them. Or to seek anything.
"You never know who you´re going to meet" is true, but first step is to go. Just go.
Feeling quite lost, really, and it´s strange. Okay I can go, but where.

Forward of fucking course.
Without the embrace of the city, tough. Let´s drink.

Paluu, kamera, nuoruus - KÄY

 

Okay. These photos represents life here and there and everywhere. Art is everywhere, what a relieve.

 Time goes fast and oh dear it´s running wild. As it goes by, I see remarkable people and issues. And it´s time to shake up some things again (in here and there and everywhere).

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